Dear best friend of all,
I have never doubted our friendship. This may sound cheesy, but I knew from the day I met you that you would make a difference and something special in my life.
That is and remains the truth. Through the years you have been my comrade in arms, my better half and only family. You have become a part of me.
And that is something I will never thank you enough for. Throughout this time you have done more than anyone has ever done for me – without exaggerating.
But the thing that showed me that I could count on you as long as I lived was my lovesickness.
The suffering I couldn't bear alone, the heartbreak you put me through as if it happened to you.
No, I won't talk about the pain that I've been through.
I'm not going to talk about the trauma and scars that are left.
Do you know why? Because it's not about me, it's about you.
The truth is that I'm not a great writer, but I just want to say thank you.
Thank you for not letting me fight my demons alone and for never letting me down.
Thank you for putting up with me. For not losing your nerve when I was angry, hysterical and unbearable.
For not losing your patience and driving me to hell even when I deserved it; tte.
Thank you for always listening to me.
That you were always there, that you never told me that I bore you with my endless stories you've heard a thousand times, and that you were never too busy listening to me.
Thank you for picking up the phone in the middle of the night and showing up at my door every time I needed you.
For taking care of me when I would be a child and that you never let it slip out of your sight.
Thank you for being understanding and compassionate. For empathizing with my pain and not letting it eat me alive.
Thank you for not judging me. For not blaming me for the way I felt.
For realizing that I needed time to recover.
For not thinking I was crazy for behaving the way I did.
Thank you for holding my hand and wiping away all my tears.
Because you were with me the whole time I was afraid to fall asleep alone and lived my life instead of me when I wasn't able to.
Thank you for being mean, harsh, and brutal at times. For taking off my pink sunglasses and opening my eyes.
For all the times you made me face the painful truth, which I didn't want to accept.
For not telling me lies just to make me feel better.
For telling me all the things I didn't want to hear just because they for my own good.
For all the times I hated you when I should be thankful for your honesty.
Thank you for never giving up on me. Thank you for healing me, I couldn't have done it without you.
But I also want to tell you that I'm sorry.
Sorry for putting my ex first while I was still dating him.
Sorry I didn't give you enough of my love and attention.
Sorry I was blind in all these situations when you tried to tell me that he was not resisted.
For not believing you and your judgments, even though I knew you always wanted the best for me.
Sorry for being so selfish. For not thinking about your needs while I was in a moment of concern.
For spending all these months in my personal agony, without asking how you are.
Without understanding that you have a life outside of our friendship and that I wasn't surprised if you ever needed me during this time.< /p>
I'm sorry I wasn't the girlfriend you deserve.
I know I can never give you back everything you f’ r did me. I just hope you know that I would be lost without you.
I just hope you know that you inspire me, that you know how much I do love you and how much you mean to me.
And I hope you learn from my mistakes to never repeat them.