I really wanted it to work, but then I realized it takes two to make a relationship; two people who share the same goals and take care of each other's needs.
In this case, I was the only one trying enough.
< strong>You made me think I was doing something wrong all along.
You've made me feel like I'm missing something that would magically make you happier. I thought I was the problem.
I was so hard on myself trying to be better, prettier and more adaptable… All for nothing, because in the end you only cared about yourself.
At some point I realized that the way we interacted with one another was not healthy. I didn't deserve to be treated like that by you.
You hardly ever bothered, except when you were afraid of losing me.< /p>
And the only reason you were scared of losing me was because you knew you would lose all the care and comfort I gave you during our years together always brought back.
I was tired of feeling inferior, of feeling that there was always someone better and more suitable than me. I lost all my confidence trying to make something of us.
It's fair to say it wasn't worth it.
You got me on me let yourself doubt, and you should have been the last person to do something like that.
You made me feel guilty about every decision I made and never gave me support when I needed it.
I was tired of holding myself back because you did everything what I said, discredited and it was always about you.
I no longer wanted to live in fear of what my partner would say if I expressed my opinion ;ere.
I was tired of being sad because you didn't show any interest in anything that interested me. I didn't mean to beg for your love, because that's not real love.
True love comes naturally, without having to ask for it. True love shows itself when someone is in need.
I was hoping that you would change, that something would magically click would, but I was extremely unrealistic.
People like you don't want to change. They just want to find someone who will make them feel good so they don't have to strain themselves, someone who will nod their head at everything they say and never oppose them because it's easiest that way.
You should have been my safe haven, but in the end you were just a burden, and I'm saying that for the first time without feeling bad about it ;choice.
I had to give you up to find my way back.
I needed to get to know myself again without you, and I did.
It wasn't easy, but I decided to put an end to everything that was keeping me from being happy to be – you too.
I finally decided to follow my gut and leave you behind. It was the best thing I've ever done for myself.
I finally felt free. At first I was confused and lost, but as I allowed myself to enjoy life without thinking of you, I became happier and more content with my life.
Me finally felt like myself. I started a new life all by myself and I proved to myself that I'm good enough.
I didn't need to hear that from you. ren, because I felt it deep in my heart; I knew I was good enough just the way I am, without you, without anyone else but me.
And then all my worries about starting over were gone. I knew I did the right thing and I still do to this day.
I am so grateful that I had the strength to listen to that little voice inside me telling me , that I deserve more, and that made me do all of this.
I'm so thankful that despite everything, I found the power within me.