When we first met, I fell in love immediately. There was no way I could control that. My heart was doing its own thing and I was helpless.
While I was in love I felt so high and I couldn't even imagine my inevitable fall would be so brutal. But he was.
Those who love too much lose sight of themselves.
I can't believe I didn't see it coming. I've taken so many hits from the universe just to finally realize this:
He doesn't love me, he uses me. He almost never has time for me, everything else is more important to him.
He treats me like my opinion doesn't matter, like I'm a kid and every time I ask him about it he tells me I'm exaggerating.
He plays with my mind and makes me feel crazy while making excuses for himself.
Every time I try to express my feelings, he tells me I'm imagining things.
And that's exactly why I want to leave you.
I want to leave you because I can't be myself around you.
I want to leave you because I have some self-esteem now.
I want to leave you because I know that something better is waiting for me.
I'm leaving you because I don't want to become who what you take me for.
I want to be myself. I want to live free from your judgments. I deserve to be loved the way I am, not the way you want me to be. I'm good enough.
I'll take care of myself from now on. I accept everything that I didn't like about myself before.
I accept my body and more importantly , I accept my entire personality – both my good points and my flaws.
All of this makes me who I am. I no longer care what you think of me; I escaped your love spell.
It might hurt, but I'll totally get over you. Time will be my healer and I will be my own teacher.
I will teach myself to set higher boundaries, to do things I never thought I could do.
I will turn off the voices that tell me I'm not good enough. I will erase you from my heart and mind.
I am strong enough to let go of anything that blocks my personal development.
If you don't love me for who I am, I don't need you in my life. There's no point in holding on to someone who makes you unhappy.
I deserve better than little love and even less trust, constant conflict and all this insecurity. I deserve better than a boy like that.
No one can determine my worth but myself. Now I have a little more self-esteem and wouldn't give it to anyone.
Just one can teach you to take care of your heart. One man can make you cautious forever.
You've been a steep learning curve for me, but now I'm done with you and any other man like you forever.
I'm finally ready to move on from you and everything related to this relationship.
I'm ready to learn from the mistakes I've made and them to let go.
The only rule that applies to me from now on is to learn from my mistakes – everything else can come and go.
You showed me that I destroy my own happiness by listening to other people and following their rules. Now it's finally over.
I'm not afraid to be myself. I'm not ashamed of my mistakes, and that makes me strong.
Instead, I learn to appreciate my mistakes and to be thankful for them for making me different from everyone else .
I don't want to be loved for something I'm not; I don't want to live my life like that.
In a way, you were the worst and best thing that happened to me, because now I know; me what I don't want in life. Now white I don't need anyone to make me feel complete.
Only I can complete myself, and that's what I'm doing by leaving you.