Sometimes in life we think we know everything. We think we know exactly when something should happen for us. But that's not how life works.
As much as you would like it (me too, by the way), we are not in control of our destiny. God did.
And sometimes the only thing you can do is let things take their course and hope that everything will be alright.
I can still remember imagining this perfect man met a few years ago.
It was a strange time for me as I struggled with some things, but I can still clearly remember the moment I met him and the mood of the moment felt.
You know, the one that knocks your socks off and makes your skin tingle.
Exactly that one. And this guy was special. He knew what to say and how to treat me and I felt like he was without a doubt the right one for me.
Although I was struggling with some things at the time (slight alcohol dependency and a less than ideal living situation), I adjusted to life.
I felt like I'd met the man I was meant to spend the rest of my life with, despite the obvious warning signs (mostly mine).
Look, I wasn't ready for a stable, healthy love relationship. I wasn't ready for that all-encompassing love that gets you going and you want to commit for life.
I was a total disaster. I was in such a bad state that just the thought of trying and maintaining a relationship made my head spin, but I told myself I was ready.
I decided against myself and ignored all his pleas for help. I figured I knew better. In my head – I was fine.
Who doesn't drink every now and then? What if I can't find a permanent place to live? Isn't that how it should be when you're young?
No, it shouldn't and it took me years to come to terms with it. I thought I knew what I was doing.
I thought I could just flip a switch inside me and make it all right…but I couldn't.
Of course, my relationship crumbled before it even had a chance to blossom. We never had a chance. I wish I had seen it sooner.
I have to admit, it was a tough one for me, but it had to be so for me to gain that much-needed perspective.
Now I know’ I know that God is the only one who knows what I need. And He won't show me until I'm ready. And that's okay too.
Because honestly, what do we know about life and love?
You learn over time. You make your mistakes and only after you learn from those mistakes does God show you the person who is meant for you.
I know this sounds harsh, but that's the truth. I stopped believing I knew everything.
I stopped believing I knew what's best. Because I don't and it feels so good to be able to say that.
It's all in God's hands. And believe me – He knows what He is doing.
Sometimes it may feel like you're lost. And at times like this, you have to trust that this is the path you have to take in order to make your mistakes and learn a valuable lesson from them.
Once you stop, your mistakes as a bad thing and start looking at it as an experience to learn from, things will work out for you. For me they are.
God is always there for you. You may not always see or hear Him, but He is there and hears you.
And you know what? Just because it seems like your life is a collection of shitty things doesn't mean He doesn't have something awesome in store for you!
< em>Let my situation serve as an inspiration for you so that you don't lose your courage and faith in God.
Just a few years ago I was a disaster. I had no place of residence. Unable to keep a friend to save my life, I drowned my misery in alcohol.
And do you know where I am now? My mindset has changed in such a positive way that I feel my best ever. I letß God take control and things started to pick up.
When I finally realized that I can't control what happens and that pushing things when they're not ready will only backfire, I gained this beautiful perspective that changed my life.< /p>
Now I'm a woman in love. And it's unifying, soothing and right in every way. And do you want to know why? Because I thought of myself first.
I put myself first. And one day the pieces of the puzzle came together and my life became something I was finally proud of.
God first showed me the man who was meant to be me then when I was truly ready for him. And not a minute earlier.
A few years ago, that wouldn't have worked. But today is the best thing that has ever happened to me and I can proudly and selflessly give my all.
Learn to let go. Believe in God and in His plan. Just because you're struggling today doesn't mean tomorrow can't be better! He'll take care of it and I'm your living proof!