You'd better stop contacting me because you won't find what you're looking for. You know, a year can make a lot out of a person.
Everything was different just a year ago. I could never have imagined that so much could change in such a short time.
I guess that's life; full of radical changes and so unpredictable that you never know what will happen next.
It all started a year ago. The sudden realization hit me like lightning. I knew it was time for a change.
Because life is so unpredictable, I am grateful for every moment of my life. But there is ONE I can never be thankful for enough.
Life has changed me, you have changed me… But that is no longer important. I have changed and will never be the same. That's all that matters.
When you hurt and humiliated me for the hundredth time that night I cried non-stop for a while.
Well, understandable actually, given that I've been suppressing my feelings all my life.
I gulped them down and it was only a matter of time before they would boil over.
Then that night it happened. But then… Gossip. I smacked myself and decided to stop feeling sorry for myself.
No more self-pity. I sat down and had a serious talk with myself.
Today white me that it was the most important conversation of my life. I would even say it changed my life.
No, I'm not crazy. I've realized that the most important conversations in life are the ones we have with ourselves.
I wish I had it sooner ;had it. If only I could talk to myself a little earlier it would have been so much easier for me.
I repeat, I'm not crazy, I just found it awkward talking to another person about my feelings.
Everyone always knew me as a shy, quiet woman, who only says anything when asked.
Don't get me wrong. Being shy isn't necessarily a bad thing.
But now I realize that my shy nature has taken me away from many things in life that were actually good for me .
That's why I didn't have a friend or anyone else to talk to when times were tough.
In fact, you were the first person I opened up to. You were the first one I fell in love with.
I didn't know that all you wanted to do from the start was play with it and throw it away when you were done.
How could I have known when you convinced me so firmly that my heart would be safe in your hands?
Yet you failed to emotionally paralyze me. Your little games hurt me, but they couldn't turn me off completely.
Surprisingly, they changed me for the better.
Me I'm not afraid to open my mouth anymore. As you can see, I can now tell you everything I couldn't tell you that night.
The problem is, you don't deserve anything from me anymore, not even my words.
I've become more confident. I'm stronger now. I won't let anyone treat me the way you used to treat me with disrespect.
I no longer shut up when someone is rude to me. I don't let anyone trample on me. I don't let anyone take advantage of my good heart anymore.
I have a large circle of friends now, but I still like to keep people at a distance.
I don't want to let anyone get too close to me unless I'm absolutely sure they're worth it.
I have to admit, I love the new me.
In fact, I'm loving myself for the first time in my life. I know value myself now and I want to work on myself every day.
I won't stop until I'm completely in love with myself.
My personality will no longer distract me from the important things in life and I will never miss anything again.
And as for you, I have a little tip for you. Stop texting me. stop calling me Stop apologizing.
You must have confused me with the woman you were with a year ago. I'm not that woman anymore.
I don't need your apology because no matter what you say, I will never let you into my life again .
